Selena Gomez Recalls Contemplating Suicide & Going To 4 Treatment Centers Amid Bipolar Disorder Diagnosis

03.11.2022 - 21:41 / perezhilton.com

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Selena Gomez’s new documentary My Mind & Me premieres on Apple TV+ on Friday, and judging by a new interview with Rolling Stone out on Thursday, it is bound to be very, very revealing.

While promoting her upcoming film, the singer sat down with the outlet to discuss some of the mental health challenges she has been facing largely in private for the last several years. The Disney Channel alum revealed she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder during an Instagram Live with Miley Cyrus in 2020 and has been outspoken about caring for her mental wellness ever since. Now we know why it is so important to her.

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Selena’s challenges really became apparent to her in her early 20s — though she had no idea what was going on at first. She recalled:

She found herself experiencing a series of highs and lows that would last weeks or months at a time. On her better days, like in one instance, she was convinced she needed to buy everyone she knew a car to share the “gift” she had been given with those in her life. Inevitably, a low would follow:

Sadly, this “dark” place led her to contemplate suicide. Though she never attempted it, she spent a few years with the thought weighing on her mind. The 30-year-old revealed:

Suicidal ideation is terrifying, with your mind making you believe that there’s no other option. We don’t care how many treatment centers Selly has been to, we are so glad she got help and never acted on these harrowing thoughts.

In 2018 though, a year before she was ultimately diagnosed with bipolar, her mental health journey reached a new point when Selena began “hearing voices.” This led to an episode of “psychosis,”