Lauren Goodger: ‘Trauma of losing my baby hasn’t fully hit - she'd be nearly walking'
09.07.2023 - 05:59
/ ok.co.uk
It's been a year since Lauren Goodger tragically lost her second daughter, Lorena, on 8 July and as she reflects on the last year, the former TOWIE star reveals it still hasn't fully hit home. “I can’t believe it’s been a year. It feels like it happened a few months ago, it’s only just sinking in now.
It didn’t sink in for ages and I don’t think it fully has hit me at all,” she says. “A lot went on around that time which blocked me from actually concentrating on the most important thing that happened. So going through certain things I went through at the time didn’t allow my brain to section things off what was going on.
“It was just a lot of trauma in one go. I was on autopilot. I moved house and I just didn’t ever sit still." Lauren, who is also mum to daughter Larose, who turns two this month, opens up on the hardest parts of the anniversary including the milestones Lorena would have reached by her first birthday.
“It’s the little things, like she would be nearly walking, first words… and she’s not here," the 36 year old says. "And to be honest, it’s hard for me, but it’s really hard because of Larose. It would be so nice if she had that little sister to play with.” Lauren remembers her daughter in lots of ways.
And the tattoo on her arm which includes Lorena's ashes means her daughter is apart of her. “Lorena is up high [her ashes are on a shelf] – her hair, handprint, footprint, pictures, her little butterfly and there’s a picture of Larose and Lorena together that she can see, and she sometimes just stands there and says, ‘Baby, baby.’ “I say, ‘That’s your sister. Say, Lorena’.