Why Kelly Clarkson Was Hesitant To Release Music About Brandon Blackstock Divorce
29.05.2023 - 12:41
/ etcanada.com
Kelly Clarkson let her emotions take over while recording her latest album, Chemistry, her first since ending her marriage to Brandon Blackstock.
Clarkson first met Blackstock in May 2006 and they were married in October 2013. They went on to have two children together, 8-year-old daughter River and 7-year-old son Remington, before announcing their split in 2020. Their divorce was finalized a year later.
“I was just crying, like, a lot,” Clarkson told Nancy O’Dell on “TalkShopLive” of making music largely inspired by her breakup. “Ending a relationship, you know, that’s gone on for years. You have children. It’s so involved. There are so many layers to it. …I just wrote a bunch of music, like two and a half to three years ago. And then I think the thinking came in when it was like, what’s appropriate and inappropriate.”
The 41-year-old singer and talk show host admitted that she was hesitant at first to release this album given the personal subject matter in the songs.
“It’s hard when you have kids and you’re like, ‘OK, how do I address this?’ I picked the [songs for this album] that I thought were, I mean there are definitely ones on there where ‘Mommy was angry’ but mommies get angry and that’s healthy, that happens. I don’t polish my life and show it to my children. They see it as a whole, which I think is healthier.”
Clarkson added that she’s now in a very different head space than she was when she wrote Chemistry, but admitted that it is sometimes tough to now perform these songs live.
“I wrote these so long ago that I’m in a different place. But it is hard, because I’ve had to sing them all live,” she shared. “And I’m incapable of not feeling and going to that moment, so that’s hard, emotionally, but I’m in a